Twinkie Update

Lets Start with Allyssa!

We all know that the twins turned one years old. Of course I cried tons before hand so when the day came it all just became a day of smiles, fun, laughter and really just plain old joy! How can I be sad on a day that is really supposed to be happy. Life is about celebrating so I wanted to do just that! No need to reflect on the couple short months they spent in the hospital, I needed to reflect on their first smiles (about 8weeks old - adjusted) their first time sitting up (about 7months old for Allyssa and 5 months old for Austyn) first crawl was about 7months old for Austyn and about 9 months old for Allyssa. Triumphant glory. What a magical thought, what an amazing journey. In so many respects the winter went incredibly slow the changes incredibly challenging (for me starting up college again with preemies and an energetic 3 year old) but the infamous thought that everyone always says 'its not about where you're going its about how you get there'. Its a truthful statement, its why its so popular!
To be so proud, to feel so enriched, to feel so blessed. As much as I value all the good in my life I never take for granted my children. My husband, my ability to be a stay at home mother/wife. Well thats just the nature of the beast. With all good things comes hardships and challenges. I too have mine. Few and far between thankfully enough, but still they are there. I'm ok with that. How fun or interesting would life be if it always just went my way. I know the chaos or the disturbance is always lurking, waiting for me, waiting for us. Metaphorically speaking if I said I'm ok with it rocking my boat just as long as we dont sink, then I'm fine with it!
So I started my fall semester of college and truth be told full time is alot on me thus far. One week in and I already feel the burden of my choice. Gosh cant ever be challenged enough I guess that I must torture myself with even more to accomplish and keep together. First few days were agonizing torture, constant thoughts of when..........when.................when???.............when???...........when will I get a chance to do this dang school work. Don was on doubles and the kids really who can learn about how to identify the criteria in poetry or learn about philosophers and why conservation ethics are important to global preservation. Really? LOL I devised a schedule, something I suppose really needed to be taken on by both Don and I. The first day or so ironing out wrinkles it all seemed like it was doomed to fail, but we have worked it out and my husband has stepped it up. Hello, Honey, where have you been? My husband is back, the man that any woman could wish for! A deep personal desire for change an odd commitment to continue to love me despite all my loudness! I am so lucky. Really I have to call that luck for now as I will always feel that he's something in me that I just dont sometimes. Maybe when I get where I'm going with myself in terms of academics and personal health I can be there with him. He's leading my path, ironically the path in which I showed him to take. HUH! Imagine that!

Anyways back to my lovely children. Allyssa kissed me the other day. blew my freaking socks off. she leaned in and she kissed me! Want to know when ? On my Birthday! Thats right my sweet little angel baby kissed me! I just about melted and Don saw it too. We did the biggest 'awe' you ever so and she was so proud of what she had given me that she did it again....and again........!!!! I always have to BEG for Allyssa kisses and she always just does it because I wont pick her out of the crib till she does. She's stubborn and I'm stubborn so we've been known to play this 'kiss me' game for over an hour. Yes I'm a mean Mommy and I wont let her out of her crib till she gives me a kiss. I demand the love, lmao. Well she just doesnt want to do what I ever want her to do. Defiant little spunky thing. Let me tell she is a rare breed of baby. Light up the world with her smile and melt your heart with her giggle. Mommy wont have to mention her lil dark side when I celebrate the goodness of who she is most of the time these days. Thank You God! Austyn, my little bubba, he is just still so darn happy, so full of life. So full of just everything sweet and special. Old soul, been here done that and much like Whitney knows some spiritual wisdom's. They both teach me and even as my children I look to their hearts and their souls to see the beauty in life, to feel the purity of their hearts and their souls. Wise, been around enough to know a few things about life. They can teach me something for sure! Austyn is learning to walk, finally found interest after all he has been crawling for about 6 -7 months now, lol. He should have been walking a good 3 months ago at least but he just didn't want to. Hey for being 13 months old now, who can complain, I certainly am finally ready for him to walk, I think he needs it for him, so I cant hold him back without encouraging him, so that's what I've been doing. Daddy and I work with him everyday. He likes it. So I predict by about Whitneys birthday he will walk. Allyssa watches him, she tries to join, its funny she giggles and Tries but really is just to wobbly and reminds me of Gumby, lol
He says "momma" all the time when he wants me. He nods his head, he yells back and forth with Daddy and he likes to pull hair and he likes to be silly butt and get chased around the house. Its amusing. Hes a happy person. Oh and his new found passion, slides, he luvs, luvs going down slides at the playground, oh my gosh he tries to climb up them now and everything!
Whitney, she is so ready for school. With all the apprehension about bad behaviors and germs really the choice is just much too clear now that she needs this. She needs to play with kids her age, she needs to be stimulated on different levels. She's at the age where she needs more than what I can give her at home for variety of activities. The twins have taken from her in some regards. Its normal for she had 3 years alone and now a whole year with them, think of how much time has been taken away from her. The years is when she start remembering stuff. Ashamed she really wont remember 3 years of being absolutely spoiled rotten. Twins have been putting new pressures on her that I hope she doesn't hold against them. For instance sleeping in her own bed. Twins sleep all night long alone in their crib, where up till a few weeks we still had not gotten her to stay put in her bed at all. At least now we put her there and she may climb in with us at 4-5 am but its a start. I tell her if the the twins have to sleep alone, so does she, that its not fair! Really it makes me feel guilty. I would have loved to co-slept them. I would have loved to do alot of the things I did with Whitney with them but with 2 I just couldn't. Not practical to co-sleep twins, hhmm, imagine all 5 people in our king bed, hahahahaha. Anyways she's a good big sister, as the twins get older they love to wrestle or play or rough house, I swear she'll hurt them by accident and then cps will be at my door wondering why my twinkies have bruises or something more serious. So comes the constant reminder to take a chill pill. She is learning to write more and she is really really good. I mean I think she writes like a 6 year old. Very proud of her.
Thats all for now, whats to come in September is Whitneys birthday, Don has a small 8 day vacation after this week. We will be making plans to go to Jordon Fall fest, go apple picking, bake some apple pies and then we look forward to the fall foliage trips and nature walks and then prep for Halloween! Thanks for Reading if you made this far!